call me Mrs. Sainz

lolz okay but not really.... part of me would say yes to being Mrs. Sainz lolz but the realistic part of me knows that God IS IN CONTROL AND HAS A PLAN FOR ME lolz

lemme back track....

in case you don't know who Carlos Sainz is.... Carlos Sainz is a 29 year old Formula 1 driver. If you don't know what formula 1 is, it is cars racing around a track lolz. and it is so FREAKIN COOL!

I am a huge f1 girly! I watch it with a couple of guys from my church, including my Pastor, because it's just an interesting and exciting sport to watch.

and i mean if we are being honest... I started watching f1 after reading a romance novel about f1. So, of course I looked up f1 and found my favorite driver of all time.... CARLOS SAINZ!

after that it was history.... I became known as Mrs. Sainz, the girl who was obsessed with Carlos and all things f1 at church, with my family, and even at my job!

all this leads us to this crazy dream I had about carlos on Monday night....

you know when you go to bed thinking about something or you have been thinking about something or someone for a while, and then you end up having a dream about them....

well I had a dream about Carlos Sainz....

what threw me off was that I hadn't even thought about him or f1 since the last Japanese race which was two weeks ago. So I immediately knew this was no ordinary dream.... (I also think its important to include that I don't dream often, so as it is, I take dreams very seriously and I like to ask God what they mean or if they mean something)

so I had a dream that I was sitting on a big park bench table with all my family.... and my sister? friend? I don't really remember who was sitting next to me, but she was at the end of the bench. Next thing I know Carlos sits next to them, and I immediately start talking to him!

I let him know that he has been my fav driver since day one and that even though Ferrari dropped him, he is still my fav driver, and I personally think he should go to red bull if they offer him a contract. and I just start talking to him, and eventually the person next to me gets up, so I slide closer to him. When I slide closer he looks me in the eye and says "you are so beautiful, like the most beautiful person", and of course I BLUSHED!!!

I MEAN WHO WOULDN'T!!! I start blushing and then he eventually has to leave....

then literally minutes later my family and I are still sitting at the picnic table when all of a sudden we hear a big crash....

I turn around and I guess there's this an f1 race happening behind us and I guess it was Carlos who crashed near our table... and next thing I know this man is POWER WALKING TO OUR TABLE WITH HIS EYES DIRECTLY ON MINE ....

of course I start panicking, my face starts blushing again, butterflies are fluttering in my stomach, and this man walks up to me and firmly looks me in the eye and says something along the lines of "I want to make you dinner" and "I want to date you" !!!!

I mean like uhhhhh CRAZZZY!! are we reading val's blog or a wattpad story lolz

but yes this man said this to me (in my dreams) and you wanna know what my reaction was....

I look around at my family, they are all like looking at me with dreamy eyes, and I look at my dad and I say "puedo ir papi" .... IDK WHY I SAID THIS! I don't speak spanish on the daily so for me to say this sentence in spanish was 1. funny cause like not me asking my dad for permission right in front of the man and 2. WHY DID I SAY IT IN SPANISH!!!

but anyways ofc my papi said yes and the dream fast forwards to our date, and for some reason my whole family is dropping me off at his house! They all start to leave, except for .....

MY BROTHER!

for some reason my brother doesn't want to let me go... to the point that he tries to hide in the bathroom!

and in my dream, I was so mad at my brother that I think of the only thing I could think of, and I start making out with Carlos, so that when my brother comes out.... he just immediately leaves and Carlos and I are immediately by ourselves again!

and that was the end of the dream!

OMG OKAY SO LET'S DEBRIEF!!! cause that was a lot!!!

my first response to the dream was .... HE WANTS ME! CARLOS SAINZ WANTS ME!

but then I took more time to think about it and pray about it, and I just felt this overwhelming wave of LOVE from the Lord.

You see recently I have been struggling with insecurities and self-confidence. Sometimes I just get in my own head about my beauty and my body and I let those insecurities get the best of me.

So, God wasn't trying to tell me that I would marry Carlos Sainz (although I wouldn't be opposed to it) but that maybe, just maybe He was telling me that I am in fact BEAUTIFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE. and not because a man told me... but because God says I am! God made me beautiful. God made me perfect just the way I am, and who am I to doubt His creation.

My prayers recently have been to forget and let go of my insecurities. To not let the opinions of compliments of others define me or my beauty, but to know that God glows through me. That people recognize me because of my ministry and everything that God has done in me and they admire that. Not my beauty, not my appearance, not what I have, but what God has done in my life. I want people to see God when they look at me. And when Carlos gave me that compliment in my dream, I could hear God say that he didn't mean my beauty but he saw something more than that, he saw God!

ahhhh crazy crazy crazy RIGHT!!

I hope that all made sense, comment down below if you have any questions ahaha.

But yeah that was my crazy dream. It's wild because God knows exactly what you are going through and He will give you exactly what you need to get through it. Just bring it to HIM! Put your worries, stress, problems, feelings, EVERYTHING TO HIM!! and I promise He will never leave you hanging!

and remember! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! YOU ARE WORTH IT!

sometimes I need that lil reminder my self too ;)

HAVE A BLESSED DAY!

-VAL 🎀